Sunday, May 13, 2012

starting anew?

So, now that I am officially done with school, it is like a shift has occurred in my life. I no longer feel like laying in bed all day long and only getting out when I absolutely had to. I have quit smoking cigarettes...going on six days and I don't even have to urge to have one. I haven't bought a bag of pot in over two weeks which has not happened since I tried quitting earlier this year. My alcohol consumption is still as it always is but baby steps. Can't cut all my bad habits out all at once or I probably wouldn't have anything to write about...anything interesting anyway. I am however replacing bad habits with good ones starting tomorrow and I couldn't be more excited about it. Or motivated for that matter. It is so crazy because this is the first time that I've felt that I can do it and succeed. I want to lose 15lbs. As previously mentioned, I never wanted to get out of bed therefore the munchies I had with a combination of the comfort food had no where to go but my ass. And there it set up camp...along with its BFF cellulite. Gross. Now, I'm 5'2 and 135lbs. My weight has been fluctuating for the past few years but I'm ready to focus on maintaining this healthy lifestyle. The only thing that is going to get in the way that I can see right now is my partying because Lord knows I like to party...and I'm good at it.
Anyways enough rambling. My point is that I have just ended this chapter of my life, the past five years, and I'm really not sure what's in store for the future. After graduating from high school I knew I was going onto college. Now that I'm done with college, I have no idea what is going to happen next. I mean obviously I'm going to start a career and hopefully one where I can write but other than that I don't know. Before I knew I was going to Grand Valley and moving to the west side of Michigan. Now? I'm here in Grand Rapids but it's not permanent. So crazy! But for now before I start my professional career, I want to have a little bit of fun. A fun loving free spirited summer romance? I've always wanted to do that. I'm not looking for any of that right now though. I'm way too happy with where my life is headed right now to throw a boy into the mix to throw off my groove.
My week is going to be crazy since I'm working 9 shifts but I hope to be able to keep this diet in check and stick with it. I'm hoping I can drop the weight by the time fourth of july comes around. wish me luck!

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