still pissed.

Why do guys have to be such jerks? Or are girls, myself in particular, just that stupid? I'm going to say it's both. Yes, I'm an idiot for falling for a guy and letting him in so far before actually getting to know this person. BUT in my defense, he knew how I felt and I definitely showed it by going above and beyond for him. He hurt me so badly and I'm recovering from it but it's because I know that I have no choice. He's going overseas. Besides that, he's an asshole. It is yet again another instance where guys do what they have to do to get a girl to sleep with them, etc. I cannot help but discredit my intuition a little bit. I had such a strong feeling and felt so differently than I ever have before in my life. I thought that there was something to come of him and I. He brought such a smile to my face and I trusted him with no hesitation, something I have not really been able to do for the past four years. I felt such a connection with him and we had so much in common. What does the prick do? Ignores me and continues whatever you want to call it with his ex girlfriend...there is a reason she is your ex right? Go ahead and go back to what is familiar and miss out on something new and exciting. Something you will never know what it could have been because it was never given the chance and that is ok. I'm not going to pine over some average Joe when he doesn't want anything to do with me. I'm better than that and I deserve much better than that.